byit's hard for me to join in on the "computers suck I'm moving to the woods" style of burnt-out programmer even if I understand that's not (always) meant literally, because there's so much cool stuff you can do with computers. running my own corner of online, running my own computers, finding the willpower to put in the time to learn 3D modelling so I can have my own vtubing model even, all of that is very important to me. core to me, at this point, in a lot of ways.
I hate that I feel like I have to constantly nurture this personal side of computing, actively maintain it even, because I too am just being worn down and burnt out by the way the rest of the industry is. the way the big companies are, the way the people who lead them are, the way (unfortunately) too many programmers are. the slack GPT news bums me out because I assume we're going to get it and three of my coworkers are going to go "wow this is so cool, I can ask the computer a question and it'll throw words at me in a way that vaguely approximates a thought-out answer". and I guess I'll just have to ignore that, or maybe politely nod in a meeting if it comes up then.
I wish we could get the cool stuff without all of the absolute shit as a side effect, within the industry and outside (and as a consequence of) the industry. I wish I didn't feel embarrassed, constantly, about what I do for a living and what is basically the only thing I'm qualified to do professionally.
