my sense of dread and sadness comes from knowing that i'm not very good at reaching out or being an active friend outside of the group chats i keep to, and that once we're all not bundled together here anymore i'm gonna lose a lot of the greater group of weird creatures i found here. it'll be quiet in the house again.
i'll have postcards to mail for a while, but then when that's done all the conversations will have ended and i'll be left in a quieter world than i'd like.

