ive put a lot of thought ans care into inlé as an alt sona, but i caaant draw it for the life of me
of course my normal fursona has a lot of thought into him too - it took me like, two or so years to find a design that felt me adter having the same fursona for nearly a decade
but while MCTL is me as a "whole", Inlé represents a different part of myself I guess. The me at home. The me that has to do chores, who is a stranger to most people, who's tired all the time.
The split design is based off of magpie harley rabbits ofc, but also a deliberate choice in how i feel about myself a lot too - especially because of my bipolar disorder. I feel split down the middle. And that's alright, it's fairly normal, but its always felt extremely loud to me.
Inlé is my disabilities and how they affect me. It's quiet and tired, it walks with a limp. It doesn't talk much because it often struggled to think and remember, it sometimes has to fight to stay in reality. It's traumatized and soft spoken because of it. I've considered giving it scars all over its body to match my own, but I didn't want to complicate the design further.
It's also heavily inspired by autumn, which is my favourite season. It brings me a lot of comfort for a lot of reasons. Summer has always been my least favourite, because growing up it always meant I would be alone for three months, bored out of my mind. As I got older I began to heavily associate summer with Trauma, and late spring with stress. While I feel a bit better about them both now as an adult with healthier coping mechanisms, I still yearn for the autumn season to come around. Cool weather and warm colours bring me comfort and feel like they breath new life into me. It's comforting, and I associate a lot of Inlé with fall because of it
It's also a daydreamer, not quite there all the time like myself. It would rather be invested in a book or story than face harsh realities. I think as a dragon that's its biggest hoard - piles and piles of books of all kinds
It's name comes from the Black Rabbit of Inlé from Watership Down. It represents the moon and death, which i thought fit well. It felt weird to not hammer in rabbit themes in a sona, so it's obligatory. The moon and night are quiet times for me, times where I can wind down and keep to myself (and my animals.). I love the moon and the comfort it has always brought me, and I have a weird fascination with death and its beauty, so I thought it fit well.
And I don't really consider most of these negative traits. Inlé vs MCTL isn't negative vs positive. It's just a different part of who I am, a more personal part not many people see of me. MCTL is me as a whole, all together, the full package. Me when I feel like I can be comfortable and myself around others. Inlé is a part of me that's quiet, tired, the me I feel when I'm by myself - which is sadly often, but I'm used to it. It's become a very personal fursona very fast