Stumble back to your home away from home
A hotel by the water
You felt so proud of the man that he's become
As he stood up on the altar
It feels so strange to be in this city again
You're only here once a decade
Still by any count he is your oldest friend
And when he called, you came
But now you have a day to kill and you need some distraction
And there's no stars, just the cable cars to carry your attention
You did what was asked and now that task is in your rear-view mirror
Still though there's not a cloud in sight you wish the night sky was clearer
The sand in your shoes
Is the grains of time
Tides come and soak you
To leave your fears sublimed
An Ocean within you
A changing of the seas
Lost to the waves now
Is who you used to be
Kick off the heels moment you're in the door
Flop down on the mattress
Social isn't what you're naturally suited for
But these days you're quite the actress
Your body's so tired you can't even stand
Your Mind needs some diversion
You watched the couple have their first dance
It filled you with compersion
California is strange it's never a place where you felt that you belonged
And by monday you'll be leaving the bay but why does something still feel wrong?
A feeling is stuck between heart and mind
And it's catching in your throat
You've known him now for 20 years and that's not long at all
No time at all
The sand in your shoes
Is the grains of time
Tides come and soak you
To leave your fears sublimed
An Ocean within you
A changing of the seas
Lost to the waves now
Is who you used to be
Hello you
it is me
Who we thought
We would be
Dropped in
For a chat
But I can't
come back
I'm a ghost
I'm a ghost
That I need
You to know
Isn't here
Isn't queer
And I hope
It's clear
That you're so much more than me
In the way
That life flowed
Boy to girl
Young to old
From so shy
To so bold
Cynical
Full of hope
Learned to speak
Learned to write
Learned to love
Learned to fight
Light the furnace
Inside
That gives you
All your drive
And Please throw me on as kindling
Let me go
Let me go
Let me go
Let me go
You have such a better future
You can't go back you can't go back
Time only moves forward and you can't go back
You can't stop now you can't stop now
Time only moves forward and you can't stop now
It's not too late it's not too late
Time only moves forward but it's not too late
Changed your fate changed your fate
time only moves forward but you changed your fate
The sand in your shoes
Is the grains of time
Tides come and soak you
To leave your fears sublimed
An Ocean within you
A changing of the seas
Lost to the waves now
Is who you used to be
And as it all was winding down he promised to be at your wedding
And lying here so joyful and sore
It feels like something's ending