makyo

Author, Beat Sabreuse, Skunks

Recovering techie with an MFA, working on like a kajillion writing projects at once. Check out the Post-Self cycle, Restless Town, A Wildness of the Heart, ally, and a whole lot of others.


Trans/nb, queer, polyam, median, constantly overwhelmed.


Current hyperfixation: SS14


Skunks&:

⏳ Slow Hours | 🪔 Beholden
🫴 Hold My Name | ✨ Motes
🌾 Rye | ★ What Right Have I
🌱 Dry Grass | ⚖️ True Name
🌺 May Then My Name

Icon by Mot, header by @cupsofjade


makyo
@makyo
Anonymous User asked:

How do you feel, in general, about video games? Do you like them casual? Or even at all? I'm not sure I've ever heard you mention anything I would call a major title

The only game I play with any seriousness is Beat Saber!

I have also enjoyed TIS-100, Duskers, and Everybody's Gone to the Rapture


makyo
@makyo

Now that I am actually awake, I realize I never answered the core of the question. I love videogames. The amount of story that goes into a game is alluring, and some mechanics are really satisfying to see taken to extremes. I am also a huge fan of competence porn, so things like speed runs and such are very fun to watch.

That is all I ever do, though, for the most part. Watch. I play Beat Saber more for the music, exercise, and community than for the game aspect (and have even gotten super frustrated with myself when the game aspect comes up between me and others). I watch speed runs, the occasional stream, but mostly, I watch LPs, particularly ones that involve a unique take on commentary (Fedule's Everybody's Gone to the Rapture LP with its literary analysis, CJacobs's Alan Wake LP with its fun chatter about story and production, DeadRodent's Dead Space LP where the commentating all takes place essentially diegetically, and so on). This gets me the story, the satisfaction of the mechanics and art, and the competency of a game well played.

Games and I do not particularly get along for two main reasons. The first is simple graphomania. I know that I am bending the meaning of the term slightly, since it is not borne out of disordered thinking, but writing is a compulsive behavior for me. If I do not write (or at least dump energy into making something — software is another common target), I have panic attacks, mood swings, and I imagine I turn into an absolute monster to live with.

The second is dyskinesia caused by a reaction to a medication I was on back in 2018. My fine motor skills have since disappeared when it comes to any sort of prolonged control, which means most things to do with a mouse. I have to move . There is no 'or' in there, it is not a compulsion, I am unable to not move. While this has largely calmed down over the last few years, I am still stuck with this lack of control and a lingering akathisia, a restlessness that can only be solved by putting pressure on my knees, usually by walking. Beat Saber and other such VR rhythm games help out here more than my problems with my hands hinder, because they keep me standing and moving, making the akathisia feel way better. Besides, the movements of my hands and arms are much coarser in those games, so there is less trying to control fine movements, which often leads to me turning into a shaky, ticcing mess. This is why the other games I listed involve two typing/programming games and one walking simulator :P

Videogames are a lovely thing. They are just not my thing.


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