Slow Hours—
It seems so often to me that you have the criss cross pattern of a schoolyard tool imprinted on your face, no doubt hurled at you by a god. Your predictions are truly uncanny at times. What are the best, worst, and best-worst of your prophetic musings that have come to pass? Do you regret the best? Are you proud of any worsts? Do you worry you have a line to somewhere you should not?
I would ask if any of Jack's favorite sys-side baseball teams will win any Serieses this year, but he tells me that is blasphemy and I must not Profane the System's Favorite Pastime so. I asked whether he meant prophecy or baseball, and he did not speak to me for a week.
Town crier to your scryer,
Deny All Beginnings
"The criss-cross pattern of a schoolyard tool imprinted on your face, no doubt hurled at you by a god"! Deny All Beginnings, you amaze, as ever. I will have you know that I showed this note to A Finger Pointing, who laughed, disappeared into the exchange for a bit, and then dreamed up precisely the schoolyard tool mentioned and hurled it at Motes. She was so startled that there were suddenly almost a dozen Moteses scattered around, and we had to make them all run around the outside of the building until she was able to stop giggling and merge down once more.
You ask after prophecy, and you ask after bests and worsts.
There are, I should note, a few different types of prophecy that I engage with. The least exciting of these is simply the result of having read a rather large chunk of System Central Library over the centuries. Our lives are not nearly so complicated as we might suppose, and we are not nearly so erratic as we might imagine. Many of these prophecies are simple predictions based on the shape of the story one is currently living in.
A step beyond that is a type of prophecy that boils down to a cold read. While these might be less accurate, all other statements about fortune telling apply here: it is less about being accurate than it is about being adaptable. I do not need to tell someone exactly what will happen to them so much as what it is that they need to hear for a situation that is already happening around them.
Between you and me, though, it is quite rare indeed that I am struck with an actual prophetic vision. I can count four such instances in my time as the clade's own prophetess. I will speak of none of them.
Take, instead, a 'prophecy' that I gave to Motes nearly a century ago. This is one of my worst, of which I am quite proud.
A large part of the crew were gathered on the stage after striking the set. For some reason, they tolerate me better than the actors, so I had joined them. Here we were on this flat plane of black painted wood, sitting or laying down and chatting about our days, when Motes crawled over to me and threw herself dramatically across my lap. She set up a cone of silence, and yet still was a long time in opening up, leaving me to pet over her ears and brush specks of paint out of her tail for several minutes before she started talking.
"Slow Hours, I made a friend," she said. Even if her voice was not serious enough to give it away, she often just calls me 'Slow' when addressing me directly — one of vanishingly few people I will allow to do so — so for her to call me 'Slow Hours' (not even 'Slowers'!) meant that something big was afoot.
"Tell me of your friend, my dear."
"I met them at a dance," she said, not looking up to me. "I went out with Beholden and Unbidden to some crazy biker bar that was also having a mathcore band performing, and I met them in the pit."
"You were your big self, yes?" I asked, referring to the form she assumed whenever she went out anywhere that it might cause a problem for her to be small, whether because she might get trampled or because people might assume untoward things about someone who could probably pass as a kid being there. A metal show at a biker bar fit both bills. She likely wound up looking like a 20-something hippie human, all flower crowns and sundresses.
She nodded. "We danced for a bit in the pit and then got some drinks and talked outside, and then danced some more."
"A good night, then?"
"Very!" She grinned, but it did not last. "Very. They took me back to their place, where we got high, fooled around, and then talked into the morning."
I nodded, waiting for her to continue.
"And that was it. That is all I ever do, right? Go to a show, get wasted, maybe get laid, and then I go back to the stuff I really enjoy. I have my friends here, I have my work, I have you and Bee and ma and Beckoning and Muse, and that is all I need to continue on from one day to the next. I do not do love." She sighed, sounding miserable. "Not like that."
"I sense a 'but', Speck."
"Well..." She pushed herself up to sitting instead, slouching against my side. "I do not do love, but a lot of people do, including a lot of the people I wind up spending the night with in big girl mode. I am honest and up front with them: this is just for the night, this is just for the fun of it. I am a healthy woman in her 30s, yes? I am three centuries old, yes? I like sex as much as any three hundred year old woman in her 30s.
"Most of them get it, too. They are usually after the same thing. I have occasionally had someone catch feelings for me, which is fine. We talk about it, negotiate boundaries, move on with our lives." She giggled, adding, "Once, one of them showed up here looking for me and ma just about tore him in half."
"You are stalling, my dear," I said.
She groaned and buried her face against my shoulder. "I knoooow. Anyway, this person and I got started talking about what we like in lasting friendships that we do not really care about in one night stands and they just...they just seem like a really good person."
"And you think you might like follow up on that?"
She shrugged. "They are just into all sorts of things that I am. They paint — people, mostly, and some animals — and also dig the whole small aesthetic and we like the same music, of course. They suggested we could do a regular sort of get together thing."
"Have you told A Finger Pointing about them?"
She shook her head. "I wanted to ask you what you thought."
I asked her several questions about this person after that, and as I did, I felt a nagging sensation at the corner of my mind, a thread was being tugged and it was causing a ripple in the fabric of my understanding of the situation. Being tugged by who or by what, I do not know. That is one of those questions where, were I to try to answer it, the whole thing may well come tumbling down.
"Speck," I said, interrupting her. She must have seen something on my face, for she went silent. "Here are two truths and a lie.
"One: they are a fucking creep."
There was a moment's shock before she giggled nervously. The flow of prophecy has a rhythm, though, if it is to be believed, and I had but to settle into that rhythm to let it land properly.
"Two: you are lonely. You have us, yes. You have your clade and the rest of the troupe. You have your family and your work, but what you do not have are friends. You are friendly with everyone here, everyone here is your friend, but you do not have friends."
She still looked wrong-footed, and had pulled away from me as though wary. "And the third?"
"Three: much of that is our fault."
"Yours as in the clade's?"
The edge of prophecy let up off my throat, and I nodded. "There are as many reasons to keep someone for yourself as there are ways to do so. The whole of the fifth stanza — and, to a lesser extent, the whole of Au Lieu de Rêve — has closed around you. Not tight, of course, we are not keeping you trapped and hidden away, but we are all intensely, intensely protective of you. We have all endeavored to make your life here the best that it can be, as you have invited us to do. This was part of our conversations going all the way back, was it not? That you enjoyed leaning into being cared for, and we enjoyed having someone to collectively care for? We do not like creeps around our Motes, and so we see creeps everywhere."
As she understood what I was saying, my own little game of two truths and a lie, her shoulders relaxed and she slumped against me once more, sniffling.
"We all love you, Speck, that is all."
It was not her prophecy, of course. It was ours. She is still good friends with that person to this day. That person and so many more.
I am proud of it because I am proud of who she became, and it is the worst because we had to learn how to watch this precious thing we had set at the center of our lives in so many ways go interact with those we did not trust. It is the worst not because we had to trust her judgment, but because we learned how little we had trusted it leading up to that point.
Tell Jack hi for me, and also "5-3". I will keep the teams to myself.
— Where It Watches The Slow Hours Progress
