Madison Rye Progress

(according to what has made me give up on looking at notifications)

1. Post skunks
2. Post lizardfriends
3. Post Talmud

I saw a film recently and I won't say which so as to not spoil anything but I am so post-self poisoned thanks to @makyo's wonderful books that a digital character started splitting off versions of themselves to deal with multiple problems at once and I said "holy shit, they're forking!" with enough volume out loud to confuse my partner and everyone else in the theatre.

'post-self poisoned'

aaa my heart hahaha. I'm so glad that people have enjoyed! <3

Like most things in his life lately, Eliah's memories of the most important decision in any of their lives was clouded by alcohol. Had they been arguing about Eleanor? He'd definitely been drinking, he knew that. But the other details he didn't remember in whole. It was like a shard of fractured glass. The main thing that pierced through was Zia's voice.

"Eliah. Think about what you're doing. Please. Like, I'm as shocked as you are that this is working but..."

"I know what I'm doing," he slurred under his breath; his voice unsteady. He was half panting in exhaustion from hauling himself up the steps to the clinic. He leaned against a rail. "I'm doing what you want, right?"

She sighed. "Yeah. But...I wish it didn't have to fucking be like this."

"I do too, but it is what it is. It's now or never."

"Yeah. I know."

He stumbled up to the door, paused, turned around, and looked around at the dirty grey and black of the city, the ugly concrete and black sleet of the numerous office buildings flecked at every point by red dust. Overhead, the moon hung low in the sky. He wished that he had a hat, so he could tip it goodbye. They stood there silently, for a few seconds, taking it all in, before turning around, walking up to the automated doors of the clinic, and entering.

"Rest. I'll take care of it."

"Thank you."

He gave the mental equivalent of a nod, then realized he had said both parts of the conversation out loud. His heart rate spiked as he looked around. He would have rather assumed no one had noticed, but long dulled instinct prompted him to glance at the front desk clerk out of the corner of his eyes. His heart rate slowed. Just as he suspected, either no one noticed, or no one cared. Why was no wonder. They were hooked up to a rig. Eliah shook his head. What was even the point of having a flesh and blood person in this place if they were going to be hooked up to the net anyway?

"Are you of sound mind to undergo this procedure?" a voice buzzed in his ear.

Turning his attention back to his goal, he placed his hand back onto the panel.

"Yes."

There was a brief pause as every inch of his vitals were measured up to some baseline.

Somehow, he very much doubted that being within that baseline actually mattered.

"Are you undergoing this procedure consensually?"

"Yes."

Another brief pause, another scan. More nonsense.

"...based on these criteria and your CIN, your family may qualify for Uploading Benefits as per--"

He chuckled. If there was one thing that they could all agree on, it was fuck those people. "Next question."

"Are you sure that you don't wish to--"

He let it finish, just in case it took hastily answering into account. But mentally, he had already checked out.

"Next question."

"Would you like to upload?"

"Yes."

"Do you understand that this is an irreversible procedure, carrying with it a risk of mortality?"

"Yes."

"Would you still like to upload?"

"Yes."

"Understanding that this is an irreversible procedure that carries with it a risk of mortality, do you want to upload?"

"Yes."

He could 'see' Zia next to him. Her lip was curled, she was looking away. He wanted to put his hand on her shoulders, reassure her, but there wasn't a way to do so without being noticed, the clerk was disconnecting from their rig, blinking as their eyes readjusted to the 'real' world. Outside, the city's emergency sirens roared as a dust storm tumbled over buildings. The clinic doors automatically closed in response; the filtration system went from a slight din to a howl.

"Alright, Miss...Pirth? Right this way, please."

Mentally, he checked in again with Zia.

"This is what you want, right kid?"

The mental equivalent of a nod.

"Good, let's get out of this shithole."

He turned to the clerk, doing his best imitation of Evi's sickeningly sweet smile. "After you, please."

The clerk chuckled and shook their head, evidently their mind was elsewhere. "Yeah, one of these days."

The sirens grew louder, and the protective metal screens unfolded slowly from the building, creaking as they extended to cover the windows. Eliah and the attendant watched as they locked into place just in time; a loud thunk echoing throughout the building as bits and pieces of rock and concrete crashed into the side of it.

The clerk shook their head, looking on with eyes dulled with false hope and endless determination. "First chance I get, I'm getting out of here too."

"Cowboy" by @BinaryVixen899 will appear in Clade — A Post-Self Anthology, out August 1 with preorders coming soon!

Ernie got out of his recliner and made his way over to Devonian. They motioned for Ernie to look at the intersection of fur along their arm. Ernie had to squint to see it, but sure enough, the pattern of fur along their arm was slowly changing and shifting to match the light yellow of the lion's fur. Devonian shifted around in their seat and ran their claws along the ends of their coat tails. Ernie could see that they were now longer than they were previously. Not only that, but the material they were made of wasn't fabric at all, but was instead hundreds of finely layered black feathers. Devonian's coat tails were actually wings. They had a slight shimmer of iridescence to them that matched Devonian's bird fork. They rustled their wings gently and Ernie took that as a hint to stop staring and back off.

"While it did take a while to adjust, I'm fortunate that uploading really did help me to achieve my transition goals."

"And what were those?" Ernie asked without thinking. He cringed slightly and hoped that Devonian did not take the question personally.

Devonian did their best to grin without showing teeth. "To be utterly incomprehensible and unable to be discreetly defined. My existence as a chimera is a blessing for me, but I understand why it would be difficult for others to experience the same. The reason I come to the meetings is less about venting my own frustrations and more about giving other people an example of a way to live with constant change as a positive aspect. I could scarcely count the number of late into the night conversations that Samantha and I have had over living with a constantly changing appearance on the System."

"Support Group for Anomalies in Forking" by @NenekiriBookwyrm goes into all the beautiful imperfections one can find in even the most basic mechanics of the System. It'll make its appearance in Clade — A Post-Self Anthology, out August 1, with pre-orders coming soon!