at first i felt bad about it, like i was somehow making a Problem. it felt like it was Bad to feel good about how i looked, or to want to share that and see what folks had to say, to want to be seen as beautiful and to want to know that others maybe felt the same way.
i have devoted a lot of my mental energies to burning off shame this year, alongside similar ideas and feelings that i also wanted to shed. now? i’m gonna enjoy feeling pretty, especially since i didn’t get to do that at all for the first chunk of my life. i only get the one life and i’m determined to run with it :3!!!
