also as of yesterday i am now in the running for two (TWO!!!!!!!!!!) AAA internships which is REALLY EXCITING
one is for a game design position + the other is a producer position....... would definitely be happy with either one so fingers are crossed lol! i think the conclusion i've come to for myself is that i actually don't mind WHAT i'm doing too much in particular as long as it Contributes To The Making Of A Thing, but that it does have to feel like. creatively fulfilling in some way or another (i think a highly corporate job might be a bit soulsucking for me), and if i don't do Game Design Specifically as a day job indie stuff is definitely still something i want to do on the side/in my free time
something something games as art and a form of cultural production (i have been reading "the videogame industry does not exist" by brendan keogh and having Many Thoughts)
anyway interviewing process for both is continuing in january after the holidays so we'll see how that goes!! hoping for the best but no matter what it's definitely making me feel more confident in myself professionally and in my portfolio which is nice lol
