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noodling about my senior thesis..... i make a lot of games about identity (particularly the intersection between ethnicity/race and queerness) and subsequently my immediate first thought was to make my senior thesis (or at least my current prototype concept for it) about that, but i also was sitting there like "hmm megan you already make a lot of games about identity? maybe it's too much and you shouldn't do that?", but i ALSO think the idea that there can be too many games/too much art about the experiences of marginalized identities is intrinsically neocolonialist in and of itself so! game about identity it is!

anyway went a little crazy thinking about cultural assimilation as a mixed-race person/second-gen immigrant and the ship of theseus thought experiment so now my pitch powerpoint talks about mereological essentialism

i think getting into games studies and queer theory changed me as a person


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UGH i think so much about the ship of theseus thought experiment it's so crunchy to me (heads up for a long ass response BAHAH)

if you're not familiar with the ship of theseus thought experiment, it basically questions the concept of identity over time and the idea of the self--e.g. if you have, say, a ship, and over the course of hundreds of years of using and repairing it, you've replaced every single piece of the ship (so it's now made of completely new materials and is no longer physically constructed of the same pieces that it was when it was originally made), can you really say it's the same ship as it was at the start? if someone constructs a second ship of exactly the same model using all of the discarded materials that made up the ship when it was first made, which one is the original? the ship that's existed the whole time or the ship made of all of the original parts?

wrt my thesis and the idea of cultural identity as it pertains to the ship of theseus this is definitely a very personal example BAHAH but i was specifically thinking about like. my identity as a half-filipino person/second gen immigrant and my connection to my own status as a filipino person--i would definitely say i culturally connect more to being filipino than to being white and american, but at the same time my experiences as a filipino person and even my own experiences of filipino-ness are intrinsically altered by being half-white and growing up in the united states instead of in the philippines proper, like my mom did. in that sense, it's technically the same culture because i am filipino lol, but if the adobo i'm eating is a different dish than the adobo my mom ate growing up and i speak english but not tagalog and i reject catholicism but it's the religion she grew up with and practices, can you really say it's the Same Culture? even (and particularly) as it coexists alongside my mom's experience of it? how many diffractions can you put an identity through before it becomes something else?

culture and self-identity are obviously ever-evolving things lol so i think there are definitely answers you can apply to those concepts that don't apply 1:1 to like. boats lol BUT that sense of individual exploration of and experience with culture is more or less what i think i want to explore with said game

hopefully this explanation made at least a slight bit of sense BAHAHAH

omg i started responding to this when you sent it but i must not have finished that's my bad--yeah that's SUPER interesting!! and you made perfect sense don't worry lol. I don't really have anything to contribute to the topic myself but regardless it's a super interesting way to consider the not-all-that-positive ramifications of america as a melting pot.

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