i am currently only awake because i'm having a gastrointestinal nightmare
i don't know what the fuck i'm supposed to do
it's been like four fucking years and i haven't been able to figure out a pattern.
sometimes i eat dairy and i'm fine, sometimes i don't have any and i feel awful, like today. dinner was from a cafe in fishtown that serves, not entirely, but mostly vegan food. the pesto i had was entirely vegetarian & was, for a pesto, way less oily than i'm used to. i had fried latkes yesterday and felt fine. but sometimes i have french fries and i feel awful. i make the same handful of tofu dishes all the time now, and i haven't been able to assign a pattern for those leading to discomfort or not either.
i simply do not understand. the doctors i have been to also do not understand. i am so tired of this. i just want my gut to feel normal again. the only thing i know for sure is i had been living with undiagnosed acid reflux, and with some medication that aspect of my stupid body is managed now.
