Brain is doing a whole lot of thoughts about, well, a bunch of stuff. It comes down to "what do people think of me and who are these people who are thinking of me and do people notice me at all"
Normally the presence of genuine one-on-one human interaction shuts these thoughts up but apparently brain thinks I don't get enough of those so I don't know what's going on here.
Are these thoughts amplified by the impending cohostn't? Yeah probably, since I weirdly ended up with possibly an audience here? Or did I? Do a bunch of strangers read my things or is it people who I've made friends with and will remain friends with? Is this sort of possibly social possibly parasocial interaction actually vastly too complicated for my simple mind?
Going to bed, anyway. We'll see what the morning brings.