i'm literally nicky
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musician, image maker, BBS sysop, game boy user, pretend meteorologist, baseball watcher...
Was (@)yiffpolice on twitter (RIP 2013-2023)
Will always be @nicky from cohost (2022-infinity)
new music forever!
nickyflowers.bandcamp.com/bluesky (lol)
bsky.app/profile/nickyflowers.bsky.sociali love to make film & video!
www.youtube.com/@NickyFlowersi do stream sometimes, it's fun!
www.twitch.tv/nickyflowersi even make games WOW!
nickyflowers.itch.io/e-mail, why not!
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in reply to @nicky's post:
If someone’s eager to tell me I’m valid for something I start to get nervous I’m doing the wrong thing
I don't know, I was pretty severely neglected as a kid, so as much as I want to agree, I can't honestly say I don't both crave and require it. I'd love for it to be enough that I love me.
hey i totally get that. it takes a lot of work to generate your own validation! i was abused as a child too. i got nothing from the adults in my life but pain, so i learned very quickly that the only person who will be there for me was me. but even still, i struggle with feeling like i have no self-esteem or worth
but i believe it's worth it to try and to build myself up no matter how many times i fall. i hope this process becomes easier for us both <3
It would certainly help if my individual actions didn't consistently bring me trouble and hardship, despite my best efforts. But I'm at least getting back to a point where trying again doesn't feel like the worst possible thing I could do.
in reply to @nicky's post:
This is entirely reasonable and yet won't stop me from using it as a verbal shorthand for "i have no dog in this hunt but what you said is fine."
"I normally get mint chocolate chip ice cream but I think today is a rocky road day."
"Valid."