silly of me to worry that just because I've had trouble actually writing creative stuff lately, I'll never write again
"what if I get too into science or whatever new career I'm pursuing and I never actually go back to the art that I love?" I think, as I jot down poetry verses in the middle of a biology lecture because one of the fundamental properties of life is homeostasis/regulation and... is there anything more poetic than withstanding the chaos of the universe, not by creating an impenetrable barrier between "out there" and "in here" to passively isolate yourself, but by shifting, changing with and against world, whatever it takes as long as you remain true? To be alive is, by definition and consensus, to continuously and automatically create the conditions that allow you to keep living.
anyway I don't think I'll ever be able to stop creating art