So the wildest effect from Stretrra (second even to the nightly nightmares and the constant nausea) is that unlike all other adhd medications I've tried this one seems to actually "help" with the lack of impulse control that comes with adhd
which! is fine and good, I guess. I guess it is nice to not be putting my foot into my mouth constantly and to have more control over the decisions I make. that's a thing someone should be grateful for, I guess.
but like... idk I guess that after a life without solid impulse control it's just jarring. like oh I have to actually think about what I want to say and I have to actually make decisions, words and choices don't just flow out from the hidden gestalt of my soul, I have to remember to move things from my mind to my tongue lol and I keep forgetting! I keep forgetting to say things or do things because idk im just not used to having to think about it lol.
it's like it's given me too much impulse control almost, or maybe the muscle responsible for pushing an impulse through is just atrophied from disuse
it's strange. ADHD meds usually help and work, but this is the first time that I've really felt like a med has made me less adhd instead of just helping with the negatives of adhd. not sure if I love it tbh!