För years now I have been channeling my creative impulse into visual arts, making Content for twitter be it memes or paintings. Then I moved to channeling that into culinary arts, making food for friends and loved ones
The clarinet is interesting as now I am no longer making a thing to be consumed. When I play a note it disappears as it appears, there is nothing made. It is creative energy going into nothing but my own experience of learning and growing. It's liberating and hedonistic, breaking from the cycle of content creation, validation seeking and content consumption. I'm making art solely for the sake of making art. It's a weird feeling and makes me reflect on how different my relationship to art had been before