För years now I have been channeling my creative impulse into visual arts, making Content for twitter be it memes or paintings. Then I moved to channeling that into culinary arts, making food for friends and loved ones
The clarinet is interesting as now I am no longer making a thing to be consumed. When I play a note it disappears as it appears, there is nothing made. It is creative energy going into nothing but my own experience of learning and growing. It's liberating and hedonistic, breaking from the cycle of content creation, validation seeking and content consumption. I'm making art solely for the sake of making art. It's a weird feeling and makes me reflect on how different my relationship to art had been before
(do y'all like how my computers keep thinking im typing in swedish and putting umlots on things)
but yeah the conversation on being popular on cohost had me thinking about how like, we're all trapped in a cycle of creation being a part of dopamine chasing. I see so many people creating art not for the sake of creation but instead so that they can get a ton of notifications and man it's a dead end don't go that way.
bees build hives as it's in their nature, birds sing as it's in their nature, same goes for humans creating and singing and dancing. you don't have to be good and you don't have to make things for other people or for clout. you can make art just for the sake of making art