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healthcare bureaucrat in philly, v adhd, orthodox jew, ect ect, im love my wife



This month, Elul, is a time for taking stock, for looking over the past year as we prepare for the days of awe and the year to come. This year especially gives me much to look over, specifically in terms of observance. I went from non practicing to shomer shabbos, from knowing next to nothing about kashrus to having a fully kosher kitchen, so, a lot changed!

Like, we're only now running low on the candles that I bought when I first started picking shabbat back up, back when I'd light candles before jumping right back into the day to day.

I think kashrus is what surprised me the most about this journey into more observance. It seemed so daunting and complex at first, but honestly once I got in the rhythm of the practice I've found it to be remarkably easy. It's really grounded me having to be mindful and attentive to the ingredients and provenance of what I'm eating, and involving religious obligations into my diet really elevates things (also, as an ex anorexic, it has been very beneficial to have a healthy way to obtain agency and control over food, it's like a healthy outlet for those old tendencies).

Yeah idk, I'm really happy we're my practice is right now, and really happy for the choices I made this year in that regards. It feels weird to be looking back in Elul with a sense of satisfaction instead of dread haha.


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