I want to start learning programing/data science again but like, approaching it like someone using a lathe to smooth away wood from a piece of art. I want a craft. I want a skill, I want to hold familiar tools in my hands and know what to do with them
I do appreciate how immediately after stopping streterra I started feeling the urge and pull to learn and tinker, excited to see where this urge takes me once I do have the right medicine to push back against ADHD, excited to brush dust off of my shoulders
It's so cool that this is the third time I've quit a psychiatric medication and soon thereafter been like "fuck I feel like I spent the past [year/years] lobotomized". I'm going to hold a lot more compassion for people who swear off allopathic medicine and drink silver because man I get it haha
