But I want to be honest, I do think that classes in general are not for me. I have really bad untreated ADHD, as well as having slight OCD tendencies, also after my ADHD diagnosis, I was told to get tested for ASD(Autism Spectrum Disorder), so I don't 100% have diagnosed OCD or ASD, but I do have ADHD.

I've always had a problem with studying and learning in general. I almost was held back when I was very young because I could not sit down and do homework, so it didn't get done. Rather than get me help, I was screamed at by teacher and family alike, which made me resent learning.

You may or not may not know that I've been studying Japanese for around 9 to 10 years now; by myself. Yet, I'm not even up to a first grade level of Japanese yet. I have trouble memorizing and applying what I learn, so I stay stuck in a cycle of repetition that never widens, only stays the same. I've been studying the same kanji and sentence structures for years, yet they don't stick.

I've always had trouble with learning through taught courses, because I feel like they never go at my pace. and to be fair, I don't even know what my pace is.

I feel like I need everything told to me in excruciating detail. Every. Single. Bit.

Because in this course, I'm doing a lesson where I basically need to think outside of the very basic code structures I've learned, to think of other ways to apply it to other instances.

For example:

Instead of 1 + 2, which I may have been taught, I'm being asked to find out y + z. And, because it's not explicitly what I was taught or took notes on, this lesson today has been impossible for me to do.