Anyways, I had another mental breakdown last night(4 days in a row), and I'm just..mentally exhausted. I had this whole long post going into detail on why I dropped this coding class and childhood trauma, but I deleted it. I'm a new me, 2017 tumblr oatie is no longer a thing. I agree that I will and will continue to overshare, but not quite THAT much lol

Anyways, on another topic, I have BED. I've been having weird sensitivity issues in one of my toes, and knowing that my father and his father, both had diabetes and had their toes and more removed due to it, I got scared. I've been trying to exercise. However, if you know how BED works, you know.

I've been so depressed the past few days I've stopped exercising & have taken to my comfort BED food, macaroni & cheese. idk why I've just been on a mac&cheese fix for awhile, but when I'm hungry, it's all I want to eat. I'm hoping to get tired of it. Sick of it. Something that'll get me to stop eating it. Because it's so so so easy to make, and I work in the food sale industry, so I have easy access, on a daily basis, to ingredients to buy. I've always held true that I need to get a job OUTSIDE of anywhere that sells anything edible, because it will trigger my BED.

Anyways mac & cheese is so good.