I wish I wasn't such a dumb baby that is sensitive about stuff. One of the closed knit communities I am in on Discord, I feel like i'm either always being ignored, or shouted down for anything I say, and its a crappy feeling. I know it's likely my fault for this stuff, and I really enjoying being in this community, but lately I have felt like i'm no longer welcomed there. :/ But is it just my head saying these things, or is it real? I'm leaning towards I am just a really annoying person. I should also remind myself that not everything revolves around me, no one cares, and I can always just quietly disappear from online spaces, my presence won't be missed, I don't have to be a player character all the time. In fact that is preferable that no one try to be one. Regardless, I could always stand to be away from social media more often. Too much to do anyways to be wasting my time on something so mentally unhealthy.
