brother why is like 80% of autism like "this thing is very hard for me/causes me pain, other people sure are strong and able to deal with this thing easily" and then later learning no one else in your group of friends are dealing with this.
discovering the reverse of this is being in a commiseration circle with my friends and realizing very few of my experiences line up with any of theirs because i was too autistic to realize how much negative shit was going on and enjoying the things i was doing in my own little world during the same time/situation.