owu

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Not entirely a void. Random folks check your page from time to time.

I think, in almost every circumstance, a person knows themself better than anyone else does. There are some rare exceptions, but I think that's how it is most of the time. Of course I never like to hear that someone isn't going to be around anymore. That society failed them to such an extent that the choice to cease being is seen as the preferable option. And make no mistake, your dysfunctions may be debilitating, but it's society's job to make room for your needs and everyone else's. To ensure we're all welcome and cared for.

I've spent a lot of years doing my best to keep living through a lot of suffering. From that singular, narrow point of view, looking at a decision like this is hard to square. But I only know my dysfunctions and the suffering they put ME through, not yours. They could be an entirely different set of circumstances or even if we share certain dysfunctions, the intensity difference between them could be extreme.

It's pretty sad that those around you don't take your intentions seriously... but, it's also understandable. Like I said before, I myself have a hard time understanding it. It's a decision that seems outlandish for anyone... and you seem quite young, so they honestly probably think you're just fucking around with them. I would say, instead of trying to convince them of the decision you've come to regarding your LACK of quality of life, INSTEAD, try to convince them OF that lack of quality of life itself. If they can finally understand what you're going through enough to believe you about your intentions, it'll be for the better. Even if this is what you decide to do ultimately, you shouldn't have to do it alone. You should have someone who loves you there with you.

I want you to understand, however, that if this is your plan, your intention... you have no excuse to live a stunted life by choice until then. If there are things you dream of, large or small, you have an obligation to yourself, and to others who were not given a choice of life by their circumstances, to do your absolute best to make sure they happen while you're here. If there's someone you have deep feelings for(any type of feelings, platonic, romantic, sexual, etc.) make certain they know it explicitly. No beating around the bush or worrying about social faux pas. Tell them directly in absolute terms. This is not just for your own benefit, it's also for theirs. If these people mean something to you, they have the right to know WHAT they mean to you explicitly. If there's something you always wanted to experience but were afraid of some aspect of it; what other's would think of you for enjoying that thing, the potential cost involved with making it happen, or anything else. Discard those fears and make it happen. I guess what I'm saying can be summed up as, you have an obligation to discard all of your fears and live your life as your true self unequivocally, without fear or shame. Be free of your burdens.

I won't try to dissuade you from your intention. But nor will I encourage you to embrace it. It is your choice.

I'm going to stick around here. Keep an eye on you. If you need to talk to someone sometime, give me a poke okay? Take care <3