pastellexists

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having a pretty crappy day. i had been getting all 100% grades in us history this entire unit and i was excited about that and wanted to show my parents but when i went to pull it up i had gotten a 60% on my most recent assignment :/ and it was a really dumb mistake, too. and then i felt even worse because i'm not supposed to care about grades, it's all bullshit, so why did i feel good about getting good ones, and why did i feel bad about getting a bad one? so now i feel doubly bad because i feel like im not supposed to feel bad. ugh.

and then i took the coziest nap ive had in a long time only to wake up and realize that i missed a call from a teacher because i thought it was meant to be at 4, but it was at 3 instead, thus shattering any residual coziness from the nap. ugh.

just a bad day!


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in reply to @pastellexists's post:

Incredibly relatable haha. You don’t actually have to be consistent, though! It’s okay to be like “grades are meaningless” when you get bad ones, and yet be proud of good ones. Mental health isn’t like real life physics, you can build perpetual motion machines which improve your mood as long as you don’t think about them too hard haha, it’s a lot better than accidentally constructing ones that only work in the negative direction, which happens subconsciously for a lot of people. Perfectly understandable if you don’t want to, though. :)