i watched this movie in two sittings, one in the car on the way to visit my grandparents, and the second at my grandparents. i finished it, thought "that's it?" and then went to letterboxd to read reviews.

and i was kinda going through them, sleepy, only sort of paying attention to what was being said until i read "gender dysphoria." my eyes dilated, my breath hitched, and i sat up straight. fuck.

i don't know how i didn't get it sooner.

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the movie is so fucking trans. i'm thinking through the whole plot again from the beginning. it's about being trans, every single second. is it about the internet and depression and anxiety and predators and anonymity and growing up? yes, but only sometimes. it's *always* about being trans. always.
if this movie doesn't feel coherent to you, if it feels like it's wasting time with spooky visuals and quiet moments, if it feels like it never goes anywhere, then you're either not trans or you didn't realize it was about being trans.

this is what i want trans cinema to be. fuck entirely off with your 3 Generations (2015) bullshit.