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We're All Going to the World's Fair Review

i watched this movie in two sittings, one in the car on the way to visit my grandparents, and the second at my grandparents. i finished it, thought "that's it?" and then went to letterboxd to read reviews.

and i was kinda going through them, sleepy, only sort of paying attention to what was being said until i read "gender dysphoria." my eyes dilated, my breath hitched, and i sat up straight. fuck.

i don't know how i didn't get it sooner.

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the movie is so fucking trans. i'm thinking through the whole plot again from the beginning. it's about being trans, every single second. is it about the internet and depression and anxiety and predators and anonymity and growing up? yes, but only sometimes. it's *always* about being trans. always.
if this movie doesn't feel coherent to you, if it feels like it's wasting time with spooky visuals and quiet moments, if it feels like it never goes anywhere, then you're either not trans or you didn't realize it was about being trans.

this is what i want trans cinema to be. fuck entirely off with your 3 Generations (2015) bullshit.

other notes:

  • the soundtrack is done by alex g and it's incredible as i would expect from him. perfect person for this movie.
  • the movie really isn't horror. it's a psychological thriller? maybe? but i think to the average person it wouldn't be as scary as Parasite (2019) or Perfect Blue 1997). it was for me, but i have a vulnerability to distorted faces (particularly in a distinctly digital way) and screams. both of which this movie has.
  • anna cobb is incredible in this, her performance is just bonkers good and i will be watching everything she's in going forward. which unfortunately, apparently means i will have to watch another movie with timothee chalamet!


Die Hard Review

so my parents have a tradition of watching this movie come christmas time, and while i find the "die hard is a christmas movie" thing a little annoying, it's basically innocuous. anyway, i watched it with them this time.

it's a really good action movie! the one-liners are way more fun than any marvel one-liner. alan rickman absolutely kills it in this, and this is the only thing i've seen him in other than harry potter and it really makes me wish snape was like. a good character. anyway, the messaging on cops here is super weird, like weirder than i think people give it credit for. it's not so much propaganda for cops as a whole, as it is propaganda for the concept of the good cop.
lapd is completely inept, the fbi is directly calluous and uncaring, but john mcclane is rough around the edges but he does what has to be done. and powell is the one lapd guy whose ego is in-check enough to trust mcclane. and the weirdest part to me is that the movie basically ends on powell finally overcoming his guilt for SHOOTING AN INNOCENT KID and having the guts to draw a gun on someone again. which is BONKERS. and i think this is the most potent and specific copaganda the movie pulls: powell is not a good cop until he has the guts to kill, because good cops kill people and don't feel guilty about it.

so i really wouldn't recommend this to anyone who might have specific trauma around cops. but otherwise i think it's a fun action movie.

also the somewhat pervasive idea in the negative reviews for this movie that you absolutely have to agree with everything a character does and has done to be able to root for them is really bad for art. people are not perfect, and if having a protagonist that isn't perfect makes a movie bad and wrong, jesus christ things are bad for art.
everyone does bad things, if you act like you can't possibly empathize with someone who is like kinda unfaithful to his wife, you're deluding yourself into a moral high ground that no one can possibly honestly occupy.



One Cut of the Dead Review

i mean, it's great. the only problem is that you *have* to sit through a really boring first half pretty attentively for the movie to work. there is no other way they could have done it. so if you can stick that out, you'll have a great time, i think.