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having (had) both it is a lot like if gender dysphoria was combined with ocd
i mostly wrote it out bc it's a thing like nobody knows about and most of the resources on it online are either just, horrible, completely out of date or both and i wanted to both spread awareness of it to help destigmatize it and to help those who struggle with it not feel alone or even know that it's not just them and that such a thing exists
