sorry i haven't been active, been dealing with issues! said issues under the cut if you wanna read them, if not, have a wonderful day ๐๐ (cw: drugs are mentioned under the cut)
so recently i've been getting hyper intense paranoia about everyone i know leaving me, because i'm certain i am hated by someone in the group, and i had the intense fear of them turning everyone against me, anyways that seems to be correct by how someone was treating me today :')
also i think i might have some sort of ptsd relating to drugs, specifically weed, but still drugs in general, and i know how and why i do, and it sucks, because i keep getting reminders and loops of memories about it, and as soon as i heard a friend of mine had an editble i had a day full of panic attacks and literal flash backs about it.
but yeah surprisingly the hyper intense paranoia has been much harder to deal with than the (maybe) ptsd
