They say you and me are ⌈Tautology⌋

"walking on eggshells"
come up with a worse metaphor.
never trust a pop psychiatrist
to do the mentally ill's job

yes, how dare you
have to put up with the mess
that countless others left
a corpse of glass on the floor

is it really too much?
watch your step, i say
there's legos on the floor
a mess left by those before you

they don't listen
goosestep with abandon
then snap at me because
i've left such a mess

so i adapt
expect everyone to trod
over the bricks that once were me
a mess so thick you can't see the floor

i make camp
at the summit of a mountain
of promises broken and unkept
of social trauma and lost friends

and it's so hard to believe that anyone would want me around, after years and years, decades and decades, of evidence to the contrary, but here you are and here i am and i'm sorry for crying and i'm sorry for being insane and please watch your step there's a lot of legos on the floor

a bunch of relationship stuff came to a head and we ended things with four partner systems, and in the aftermath, we realized that our system was really rigid during those relationships, to try and keep up with the ex-partners.

and now that we're out of those relationships, things are... looser. better.

i'm me, instead of spread across alphy and Charra and &. Moko and Kakyu are finding new purpose.

we're becoming a new us, built atop the funeral pyre of an us we never should have been, and that it hurt us to be.

[cw: complaining about ex-partner systems, passing reference to domestic abuse]