I'm in that weird spot where I KNOW I'm doing very good, about as good as I've ever done, but I'm still worried about my physical condition and my stamina enough that it negates the scores I'm getting. I feel like I should be playing at a lower difficulty for 2-3 hours than higher for the better part of 1 hour, but just making myself get up and play for that long is hard.
Kinda fucked that 22 november is coming up soon again. I'm well into a year of being back into playing seriously/regularly and it feels like I've come a long way (completely reworking my form from scratch, learning doubles, accuracy WAY up) and also not come far at all (stamina feels same or worse, leg speed a wash albeit playing much different).
It's a weird game.