gawd. panic has almost been a friend and that's bad. have you ever realized that you developed a coping mechanism that was in fact bad and destructive but somehow it worked, it got you past trouble so many times that you learned to lean into it? panic has been like that—working oneself up to to a pitch of doing something rash and stupid because at least rash and stupid action was ACTION, and was an alternative to total paralysis and allowing the wheel to roll you over. ~Chara
- they/them
plural system in Seattle, WA (b. 1974)
lots of fictives from lots of media, some horses, some dragons, I dunno. the Pnictogen Wing is poorly mapped.
host: Mx. Kris Dreemurr (they/them)
chief messenger and usual front: Mx. Chara or Χαρά (they/them)
other members:
Mx. Frisk, historian (they/them)
Monophylos Fortikos, unicorn (he/him)
Kel the Purple, smol derg (xe/xem)
Pim the Dragon, Kel's sister (she/her)
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have you ever realized that you developed a coping mechanism that was in fact bad and destructive but somehow it worked, it got you past trouble so many times that you learned to lean into it?
yeah like 90% of my life was a coping mechanism
I feel like the least functional human being on the planet right now and it's wretched...trying to absorb it slowly
Yup lol when you aren't taught the proper tools and coping mechanisms, your brain goes with whatever ends up actually working. No matter how not-good it ends up being
yeah. realizing the fullness of it sucks. I feel like any of my family or friends might feel fully justified in kicking the crap out of me right now for being...THIS. this mass of barely organized panic reflexes ~Chara