how does one live with being accursed

plural system in Seattle, WA (b. 1974)
lots of fictives from lots of media, some horses, some dragons, I dunno. the Pnictogen Wing is poorly mapped.
host: Mx. Kris Dreemurr (they/them)
chief messenger and usual front: Mx. Chara or Χαρά (they/them)
other members:
Mx. Frisk, historian (they/them)
Monophylos Fortikos, unicorn (he/him)
Kel the Purple, smol derg (xe/xem)
Pim the Dragon, Kel's sister (she/her)
how does one live with being accursed
By white knuckling it, struggling every day, every minute, every second to keep whatever you have. Paranoid constantly that reality will steal it away, that its part of the curse, that it was meant to be another layer of suffering. Trying every day not to succumb to evil, to hatred, to becoming as black and destructive as the curse hanging over you is.
Its a constant fight with no win conditions. A survival match.