We have massive problems with executive dysfunction and avoiding unpleasant tasks, and we've been extremely aware of it for years now and yet we still feel some days like we've made no headway against it. We feel like we can keep up with tasks one day, and then the next day we can barely drag ourselves from bed. Attempting to think about many routine jobs brings on a dull roar of bad memories and buried anxieties and we're getting annoyed by the vagueness of that feeling. Isn't there some way to put all that stuff into the past tense? We're constantly taunted by the idea that we can somehow crest this hill, and then we'll not feel always haunted by the stench of past failure. ~Chara
