• they/them

plural system in Seattle, WA (b. 1974)
lots of fictives from lots of media, some horses, some dragons, I dunno. the Pnictogen Wing is poorly mapped.

host: Mx. Kris Dreemurr (they/them)

chief messenger and usual front: Mx. Chara or Χαρά (they/them)

other members:
Mx. Frisk, historian (they/them)
Monophylos Fortikos, unicorn (he/him)
Kel the Purple, smol derg (xe/xem)
Pim the Dragon, Kel's sister (she/her)

posts from @pnictogen-wing tagged #childhood

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I've been dwelling upon how modern society, "mainstream" Western society, whatever that thing is, adores childhood while despising children.

That's no difficult trick, when you've got doublethink on your side. Ultimately "doublethink" is just a word to describe how people deal with cognitive dissonance—I'm sure there's nothing uniquely "Western" about doublethink, but I do suspect that Western society is especially prone to it because it's built round a post-Roman core. Roman society was used to doublethink; among other things, they had to pretend that a princeps wasn't really a king. Anyway, it's been far too easy for Western culture to worship childhood while, at the same time, treating children and the youth with limitless contempt.

(More doublethink: God's love, when expressed through the loving behavior of a God-fearing parent, is often indistinguishable from hatred.)

That brings me to the Elon Musk cult and its infuriating immaturity, which is a point of pride with them. I would hazard to guess that Musk's fandom skews middle-aged or older, for the most part, like Musk himself—the man is actually older than we are, and any honest photograph reveals that about him, which I suppose is why his online public image is now composed so largely of software-generated artwork where they can give Musk more hair and make his face and body look smoother and less saggy. There's also been a tremendous recirculation of childhood photos of Elon Musk by his online fandom. The combined effect of the jumble of fake AI pictures, real (if retouched) pictures from the present, and recycled pictures from the past has given Elon Musk a sort of...glamour of timelessness. Like Big Brother in George Orwell's 1984, Elon Musk has been kicked loose from time—at least in the imaginations of his believers. Musk hasn't been anywhere near Mars, and yet Musk has already conquered him. Musk will always be the fresh-faced child full of promise beaming from his computer, and therefore his believers are also fresh-faced children full of promise, even as their hair goes grey and the wrinkles gather round their forced smiles.

There's nothing particularly new in this; we've experienced decades of being saturated in marketing campaigns with this specific purpose in mind: try to make what's old and faded into a strained parody of youth. I'd argue that this was central to Ronald Reagan's appeal (of which Joe Biden seems like a forlorn Democratic imitation): he was decrepit, made to look somehow more ghastly and wizened by his handlers' zealous attempts to give Reagan a more youthful cast. They dyed his hair and lied about it, they rehearsed his "puckish sense of humor" or whatever his propagandists called it, they crafted a deliberately puerile sort of public image for Ronald Reagan, leaning into his childlike habits (remember the jellybeans?) maybe because some explanation was needed for why a purportedly vigorous and manly adult was calling his wife "Mommy". When Reagan appeared in public with Margaret Thatcher, who was fourteen years younger than Ronnie, he gave the bizarre impression of being less like a peer to PM Thatcher and more like her child. So Elon Musk is in good company, as a celebrity with deliberately crafted man-child appeal.

There's one thing Ronnie Raygun never did, though, and that's boast about his prolific seed. Baby-making is integral to the Elon Musk brand. He's fully embraced fascıst fecundita as a value, frequently burbling about a "population crisis" and distributing publicity photographs of himself with his children—well, I suppose it's reasonable to assume that they're his children, though I point out that children who exist chiefly for Musk's publicity reasons wouldn't need to be Musk's real-life spawn. Or is that too cynical, even for me?

There's all sorts of horrible fascıst reasons for Musk's determination to brand himself as a champion breeder, not the least of which is that capitalism needs to consume human lives in ever-increasing numbers, which means an ever-increasing need to supply fresh replacements. The larger the pool of available bodies, the more intense the competition within that pool for elite status within it, and the rewards of such competition taste all the sweeter when they're the reward for struggling out an enormous mass of suffering humanity.

But aside from these ideological and rather abstract reasons for demanding ever more baby-making from humanity, there's this very personal reason: the aging men who make up the bulk of the fandom for capitalism and capitalist superheroes like Elon Musk are highly likely to have children they despise—not merely stereotyped college students or spoiled zoomers en masse but their own children, specifically. Recently I ran into a video clip of Dennis Prager fulminating about the ingratitude of young people today, and there was such venom in his words as could only arise from personal experience: Prager, a father, must have had in mind some incidents of insufficient gratitude (i.e. insufficient subservience) from his own children. At some point in the past several decades, the collective opinion has surely hardened among Western reactionaries: "our youth are diseased, corrupted, beyond hope; they must be purged and replaced."

And thus does Elon Musk fulfill a bizarre double role: he's the eternal child, but he's also the ideal father, who will repopulate the Earth with his genetically gifted seed—from sperm samples if necessary. The actual children of today aren't needed, not when we have Elon Musk and others like him. Musk and his ilk are both today's children (other, real-life children being worthless) and they'll spawn all the children we'll ever need in the future. Human evolution has ended with Elon Musk; to the Elon Musk fandom, the only viable human future is to be found in Elon Musk's supergenius spunk.

~Chara



I find myself suddenly wondering...there are surely children for whom church was the worst thing that ever happened to them, but there must also be children who thought of church as the best part of their lives.

I speculate this because, growing up as an unhappy abused child, I came to have an unhealthful attachment to the idea of school as a happy home. "real" home, the place(s) where I lived with my RL parents, was painful and miserable, a place where the only happiness was furtive. school wasn't perfect, but it had light and space and for a while there was fun and a feeling of belonging that I didn't get in my "real" home, so...school was my "home" for a while. and that was a very silly idea. even my relatively soft and cushy grade-school experiences, decades old now, had their painful and abusive moments. school ended up being a source of trauma as much as my parents' home, but the trauma tended to be more insidious, slower-acting, cumulative in its effects. and I was lucky; these days grade schools seem to be run far more openly like prison colonies, where the prisoners are drilled constantly on taking multiple-choice tests. I suspect it'd be a lot harder to love school these days...but I did love school for a time, and even after the love had curdled I kept going back to one school or another, hoping to find something there that I wasn't finding in other things.

and for that reason, I now wonder if there aren't kids who were blessed with relatively nice churchgoing experiences, who enjoyed the enforced politeness and calmness perhaps (a welcome break from an angry shouty household) and who maybe found a sense of purpose and even fun in routine church activities, and got to feeling like church was their real home. my own RL churchgoing experiences all happened in adulthood; before then I'd never been closer to a church than the front sidewalk, and my RL parents were totally irreligious. as a result it's tough for me to imagine the experience of someone growing up with church, and coming to see it as an echo of Heaven or of Hell, depending upon their experiences there.

~Chara