i, however, have created a trap for myself out of it.
i have manufactured several things for mark (the vessel through which i communicate online, who i pretend to be on a daily basis and which represents my «fursona», but not the mark who is me) using it, and constructing these webs of information that i can link together to make sense of in my head and on paper.
a problem, tho, is that i feel as though i cannot show anyone this; i feel like this is probably entirely incomprehensible to someone not acquainted with it. it's lined with images and references to a lot of things and many words of Mark Lore™ and i do not know how to make it more whole without just adding more to it, which (i think you can see a problem already) is something that is both obviously desirable and something that can and will get out of hand very fast. i don't really know what to do! it's amazing and terrible! i can graph my thoughts in a way that makes sense for me but it's weird and not practical to send someone a whole ass obsidian vault, r-right?
idk, fursona problems i guess? it's amazing that i can have all these ideas and on paper for them to gestate and develop and branch off into things, but it would be weird to like... share this construction in a way that can actually make something i think????
........or maybe i should make another canvas and only put important things there................. but that's how i got here...................................... i genuinely do not really know, i am awful at organizing things. (which is why i love this, because it kind of helps me organize things naturally, but it does not help the scale of this character that i am picturing and desiring to come into the fray)