looking through my twitch clips and still seeing one from seven years ago being one of my most-viewed is certainly something
also hearing A) how shit my audio was back then B) how different I sound is so jarring
like okay let's compare:
7 years ago - not out as trans publicly yet but will be there soon, living in a grad school dorm and thus keeping my voice down, still very uncomfortable with being myself on the air
back in august of 2023 - been out as transfemme since august 2017, did half a year of voice therapy in 2021, been on HRT since july 2018, been steadily streaming for the last few years and gotten more confident
this girl is visibly happier, good for her