the thing about working on a shmup is that it's one of those extremely stressful things because it's a niche genre that the people who are into it are WAY into it but because of that the people who are into it are like... extremely discerning in an intimidating way and I'm just here going "yay I get to do a shoot"
this is to say nothing of my lack of confidence in my ability to make something I think is good, let alone other people
