There's a particular thing that's been bothering me about the end of cohost, and I'm ashamed of what it is. I'm in a rough financial situation basically all the time, you know? I was cut off disability and have been doing my best to scrape by on the extremely meagre social assistance that I can get, to the point where I have to beg for money basically once a month
The only place that I really got consistent support from was here
Well, here and twitter, but I haven't bothered with twitter in over a year now
And it feels selfish even though I'm in financial dire straits almost all the time, because I hate asking for money. I hate asking for money from friends, I hate asking for money from family, I hate asking for money from strangers, I just hate it. It makes me feel like even more of a failure than my variety of traumas and mental illness already do. Maybe it's pride as well? I don't know
And I guess I'm swallowing that pride for my last post here. I really do need money. After rent and bills and my initial monthly shopping, I'm already down to $150 in the bank to last me until November
Thanks for everything, cohost. You were the only social media site I enjoyed and the only one that helped