it's wild how sharply my tolerance for scary, violent or gross-out movies has decreased over the decade that i've been out
in grad school i was fascinated by horror movies, read academic publications on them in my free time, and chose to do presentations on them in class. (i still think they're academically fascinating, but i can't watch them)
now i feel a lil upset seeing even mild blood on the tv, and i have to leave the room at christmastime for certain parts of die hard. paul verhoeven movies are, unsurprisingly, just a flat-out no-go
i'm not sure what happened, but if i had to guess, i'd say that estrogen, transition in general, and greater self-discovery as i've gotten older have put me more directly in touch with high levels of sensitivity that i didn't feel able to express and therefore suppressed before i came out
