Isabelle

tryin out some bullnose 3" props and it's kinda wild how grippy they are while still pushing a shit load of force

so like sometimes patients will get prescribed sildenafil citrate to treat pulmonary hypertension and like, if they're AMAB are they like permanently walkin around bricked up?? because like that's the main indication for that drug and i think technically that'd be considered an adverse reaction in this case

armchair psychiatry: chuck mcgill has a really bad rsd response

i had this thought today where i kinda started realizing how badly social media broke my brain into fixating on being like “you should be making art for the purpose of posting.”

it probably seems kinda silly but i got into this habit the last year or two where i’d get upset at myself for “wasting time” making art and not posting it. as though spending a few hours and 5-10mg of adderall with pixels or sketching or blender without having something to show others for it was somehow meaningless or bad thing. i hate that twitter rewired my brain to associate the worth of my rare spoons to work on my passions during free time with needing external validation when in all reality i enjoyed the process and got practice which itself only leads to me bettering my skills with whichever medium i’m working in. i’m still trying to get myself out of the habit now tbh. i need to create to create not create to post.

anyway i’ve drawn and pixeled a fair bit this week and it’s kinda liberating to know that literally no one will see most of what i’ve made but i enjoyed making it and learned some fun stuff and had some fun ideas.