when i was small i thought there was no one who felt like me in my area, that i was alone and i couldn't find community or even simple happiness in a smaller conservative area. i wanted desperately for there to be Any trans person around to tell me i wasn't alone here.
it's my niece's 12th birthday party and she points out one of her friends who's a closeted transmasc; she told him about me and i was like a celebrity to him. she tells me he was ecstatic to see me in person.
i am being the 1 Trans Person Existing In This Small Shitty Area that would've healed some part of me when i was little. i want to . Burst into tears
even if you're a mess, even if you're unremarkable: if you're trans, you have to live. for moments like this. for people you don't know who need to see you and know that they too can exist.
you have to live. i love you.