i'm a self-made self-taught homunculus alchemist looking for blue crystal. it's never too late to make a new you.
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NoelleSuplex
@NoelleSuplex

I don't know how many users on Cohost are in that middle/high school age range, and even if you're not in that range still take this to heart. Please don't ever delete anything you've created. As someone who did ms paint doodles and made shitty youtube videos back when I was younger, I wish I still had them. I was a fool and did what I assume a lot of people end up doing and deleting everything because you feel like it's too "cringe" or whatever.

Now that I'm reaching my 30s, I regret it. I regret it everyday of my life. You have no idea how much I wish I still had my shitty youtube videos or silly ms paint doodles. I swear I must've had like, 30-40 videos on youtube that were just dumbshit like a bunch of pictures set to music or just like 10 minutes of random gameplay from some game I played on an emulator. Pretty much all them edited in Windows Movie Maker. I had a deviantart gallery full of just the most random and silly ms paint doodles. Just the most shit child train of thought drawings I did because I was bored and had way more dedication than I do now.

With getting older and not being able to remember stuff you did as a kid, I wish I could look back on any of these. It's all lost to time now. I have a select handful of ms paint drawings by happenstance because I was a freak and uploaded them to some of the weirdest places... but everything else is either dead links or just gone. So just a message from someone who made that mistake. I urge you to not delete your creative works, no matter how "cringe" they may seem now.


ElaineMWill
@ElaineMWill

I am Old, and I can tell you that this is true

I don't know if it's because I didn't have access to the internet until I was 11, or because there still weren't many people on the internet back then (and of those few online, even fewer had a scanner, & there was barely such a thing as a graphics tablet), but for the most part I never felt ashamed to share my scribbles online - indeed, I began doing so as soon as I had access to a scanner and the rudimentary knowledge of HTML needed to build a Geocities site.

Very few people saw my scribbles, of course, so this might have contributed to the lack of shame surrounding them, but anyway -

I've obsessively saved almost everything I've ever made since the age of 5. There's one piece in particular that's lost, and I never figured out exactly how it became lost (my theory is that it somehow accidentally ended up in a box of papers for recycling), and I still think about it a lot and I'd give anything to have it back.

It was a video game manual for an imaginary game called "Hydro-Mania," a 2D platformer where you played as anthropomorphic fire hydrants. There were several different sizes and shapes of hydrants, each with their own special ability - there was a tall one that could jump higher than the others, a short stubby one that could squeeze into smaller areas, and so on. That's really all I remember! I'm not sure how old I was when I made this, probably 7 or 8 (it was definitely before we had the internet).

And so if I, someone who never threw ANYTHING away, can mourn the loss of ONE piece of my childhood art...imagine how you'll feel if you don't hang on to anything?

It's all a part of my journey as an artist!!! I love being able to look back and see how far I've come, and also to discover things I'd forgotten about and go "ha ha, wait a minute, this was actually pretty good, considering???"

So yeah - save your work, always πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–


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in reply to @NoelleSuplex's post:

This also applies to pictures. Basically just everything this post said, don't need to make them public, fancy, or even have yourself in them! The movement from normal to new to normal again happens BOTH faster and slower than you think it will. Sometimes you won't even notice change happening till the time has already left you.
Recent favorite photo is of a ladybug on log, helps remind me of the WHOLE day around it despite the time that's passed.

Mm, gonna have to half disagree sorry.

Maybe this is true of harmless things I made growing up, but I have no love for shitty bigoted meme audio files I made for YTMND when I was a teenager. That stuff, that part of my past, deserves to just rot in the sands of time, as a lesson to never do that bullshit again.

in reply to @ElaineMWill's post:

This is fascinating to me. I also saved everything, because all the kind, wise adults told me that i would want it some day. I knew i didn't want it then, but i believed them because they had Life Experience.

I'm 42 and i finally accepted that i am not going to magically become sentimental. I never have been, i just trusted all those mature people to know me better than they really did. πŸ˜…

So i scanned it all before chucking it in the recycling "just in case," but i have a feeling i'm not going to open that folder on my hard drive anymore than i opened those folders in my file cabinet.

I don't think making rash decisions is helpful, but what i regret is the storage space i needed every time i moved, the boxes that were always in my way, and second-guessing whether i really knew who i was because i wanted to throw it away the entire time. I feel SO GOOD with it all gone now!

I think it's a careful balance to strike. I came to the comments to stress if you do this, organize it. A pile of unorganized files isn't a collection, it's a hoard. From personal experience, anything in a hoard, you will never look at. Put things in binders, label them in folders, and for digital data, find a system to organize them with folders or learn to love a tagging tool like eagle or zotero or whatever else.