sadly, i may never actually get these thoughts out. articulating my like, spiritual and identity beliefs is always extremely hard, and it's hard to find the motivation to try. :(
i have a lot of feelings about the animality of humans - particularly the fact that we evolved as predators, though a lot of modern USamericans are squeamish about that fact. i have weird predatory urges that i can't attribute - there's no predatory animal (that i know of) that i really connect to... except humans. so, i was kind of musing and speculating on that, i think - wondering if i just express the animal part of being human more strongly than most.