tonight's stream was real chill and fun in a way i wasn't expecting, considering how utterly exhausted i was going into it, and i'm seriously wondering if i should just embrace the whole "sleepy streamer" vibe. it feels like i often try to force an energy that simply isn't there most days, largely because some of the biggest streamers i know are very energetic individuals, and the obnoxious part of my brain tells me i need to be more like them in order to succeed, and like... i really don't think that's the case at all??? i can be a sleepy gremlin. they're not mutually exclusive things
i dunno. just been thinking a lot about this whole streaming deal and what does and does not spark joy, and what i need to change if i am to continue doing this without burning myself out
