Maybe the reality is that I’m actually just a deeply unremarkable and unskilled person and that everything I’ve accomplished so far was more the result of good luck and the failings of others than any real success on my part.
Like, I’ve failed two degrees, never held down a conventional job, even at pro Magic I have failed far far more than I’ve succeeded (my successes have just been exceptionally fortunately timed). I feel like I’m the kind of autistic where I’m only barely functional in any of the ways capitalism places value upon.
