I finally did it
achieved all the things
got everything I've reasonably ever wanted
the road behind is full of great things
and I'm no longer alone
but the road ahead is empty
and that hole in my soul
well
it turns out it was unfillable
so I guess I will go gently into that good night
no longer kicking and screaming
because I kicked and screamed long enough
to know that, what I yearned for
what I truly longed for
to finally be happy
to finally not be alone
to just feel okay
well
it was never actually possible