god it's so weird that my feed is all mourning up until the announcement post, and then just the humming and haing of everyday chosting. The writing was on the wall, but none of us knew it was coming, huh.

I hate Twitch, mind you; the no-lifer userbase might have a lot of good people here and there, but is overwhelmingly filled by rancid little shitheels who screech and troll and play PVP-only griefing games like Rust. I don't want to court an audience there.

Youtube's not much better; broader audience, lower shitheel-to-regular-viewer ratio, sure, but Youtube's so shit for streaming, because it wasn't built for it. Plus, Youtube (google) fucking sucks as a company, and keep trying to cram more and more ads into videos; I can't even watch a livestream on my current adblocker setup w/o jumping to a ublock origin only private window, b/c something I use causes YT to completely lock up if I try to watch a livestream on it.

But, again, like Cohost, there's not really another place that caters for what I want. Discord won't do; it's friends only, and that's not the point. I want safe discoverability, which I one thousand percent know is a true contradiction, but Cohost managed it by being small-ish, and having a mostly chill crowd. That just can't be found anywhere else. It's all either too big, or too small.

Not like I have the time or energy anymore to stream. Being a live-in carer for my partner means I don't get swaths of hours in my day that can be totally uninterrupted. If I ever went back, I'd have to have some kind of clearly stated, well known policy and ritual around being able to completely pause the stream (still live) whenever I want, for however long I need to, and somehow retain an audience.

Another very solid contradiction. Still possible to be true, but something you have to do the whole Streamer Grind for, and then prestige it to unlock the 'dedicated-enough audience to tolerate your weird ADHD schedule'.

Heh. Little incremental game joke for you. Bet you didn't know I was into those, huh. Fucking love 'em, so long as they're not just number-go-up. Kittens Game, A Dark Room, Level13, etc. More Incremental/Unfolding game, less Idle Clicker.

FUCK. Where the fuck else am I gonna long-form ramble like this. Am I really gonna have to consider tumblr? Fuck.

Ingredience:

• 2 peaces hole weed breed
• 1 eg
• 1 slices kaas (any)
• 1 litter water
• 100g The Most Correct Spice Of Them All, Turmeric
• 1 Gal Heinz (canned)
• Pepper, Straight From The Cracker's Maw
• garfield
• salz
• Oi!-l

How:
wakey from teh bed on 9/11. good girl. toost the brood. good girl. maek a skrillex slippy avec le power of oil. slop in girldick und slat, n wrench Pepper, Straight From The Cracker's Maw in2 tha thang while makin skillissue haught. good girl. crak eg and slime her into ur's kill-it. do NOT break her. dont. ;-;! tak an tiiiiiiiiny lil bit of The Most Correct Spice Of Them All, Turmeric (lick .... 1g) n enrich her w/ it, b4 she is hard. cock her until solid. do NOT break her. good girl!

put slice ceese on broad 1, the'n eg on her, then breed thems. good girl

99g turmeric onto your shirt, drink yummy heinz as lil treat :3c u deserv, it so hard and sad that favourite website close. enjoy, with Eggbug

wow, so everything except who you've muted is public on bluesky, huh. So I don't get to have any separation of personal and public without running an alt account.

Probably not for me, then. Cohost taught me to like things I liked, and I don't always want that to be public. Even fucking tumblr has private-able likes.

Guh. Of course there isn't a place for us. That place was here, and in a few short weeks it'll be closed forever.

I lived through 2001. The anniversary of my father's death is in September.

This is going to be the longest September of my life to date, I think.