My OC Alexandre, a hagfish merman. He's one of Magdalena's children and Stéphane's soulmate. He's also friends with Gaël, Gabriel and Félix.

Alexandre is a little shit with little to no respect for (almost) anyone. He's a troublemaker who likes to toy with his human preys. Thanks to Gaël, his behavior has improved a lot, he's less impulsive, and now he rarely bullies other merpeople anymore.
As a hagfish merman, he can eat very decomposed corpses without getting sick.

Alexandre loves cats, but he will buy edgy shirts that say things like "I skin live kittens" or "I eat kittens for tea".

Watercolour on Clairefontaine Fontaine 100% cotton, hot pressed paper, 18 x 26 cm.
This paper is hard to use but I like it. You have to be very careful because you can't lift the watercolour off once applied. Also, I don't know how but the colours look way more muted once the paper dries.

I'll be honest.... it's been a real slog. Without going into details (as I just don't like oversharing on socials), something pretty emotionally devastating happened a couple months back (don't worry! I have many wonderful friends and my lovely partner pulling me through and I'm fine! But it's part of the story so I brought it up...)

Yeah, it was really bad, it was all I could think about for about a month it seemed. I just felt like I was collapsing in on myself.

The backing track for the song I'm working on came from that period. I knew, almost immediately, what it was about and it made me nervous, I'll be honest. Writing backing tracks is really very easy for me when I'm feeling emotional...lyrics not so much.

I knew what I wanted it to be about for a solid month, I kept coming up with ways to say it and then my brain would just...disengage. I didn't want to think about it, ya know? That's probably the hardest part about writing music that resonates with you emotionally, when the song is about something unpleasant.... you're resonating unpleasantness and it just sucks.

Then, this morning, I just told myself "Jae, sit down at the DAW, just open it up and write anything". So I did, and the first thing to come out was.

Pray, night and day, for the lost.

By all rights, this sentence is nonsensical. I'm not even religious (anymore) but something deep inside me knew that it simply felt right. And, pretty much immediately, all the feelings I have bottled up inside turned into loosely phrased concepts that erupted onto the page. I was done writing it in less than 10 minutes.

Perhaps none of it makes sense in the end... but it all feels right. And when you're writing something like this, does anything else matter?

So, apologies if the next song makes very little sense to anyone outside of my own head, but it had to be written 😅. I kind of feel like my emotions have been uncorked and I can go back to writing songs about girls falling in love, as fate intended 😆.

Look forward to the song coming out in the next couple weeks.