it is SO exhausting to keep feeling like you have to suppress harmless parts of yourself around other people and making up white lies so as not to "expose" how "weird" you are. i'd had a LOT of stuff on my mind for several months, even years for some of it... i think it was my little "experiment" with my meds that had (5 days prior) sort of pushed me over the edge and made me realize i just HAD to get this out, for my own sake... so i asked my sis if we could talk sometime around christmas .u.